No, I don't hate you. This time it was much better than the first one. After the first time I have always wondered what went so wrong, how can I make myself belief that someone I know so closely can act this this. If you had never come back I would have wondered in my whole life as long as I'm alive. But coming back you showed me why I shouldn't be nice to anyone, why I shouldn't be in a relationship. Sometimes I think the second time you didn't get much but what I got was priceless self re-innovation. You came back to straighten lot of things out for me. You showed me people do change and people should deserve to die who can't forget. Thank you for making me strong and laying everything straight on the table.
May be when you think of me you feel nothing but pity probably about how big of a fool I am, how I wanted to be "showy" and all. Even I am ashamed of some stuff I did to make you happy (impress actually!). But what I am not ashamed of is to accept me and my family the way they are. I am constantly working on making myself a better person so also other member of the family. But that doesn't mean I don't wanna accept them for who they are. You probably realized soon enough that hurting a bunch of fools and idiots would be that big of a deal and you are most rightly so on your part. But those happened to be my family and I care about the values they follow much more than I care about making myself happy in a stupidest way. So be it. But guess what??
At the end of the day, I am proud to be with my family. I am not at all ashamed to call that illiterate rural woman as my mother. I feel bad for you calling that money-monger, uncultured psycho as your father.
And one last thing, if you hate me you are playing according to someone's script.
Just so you know.
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